We can’t run from our burdens. Each of us has been given simple gifts. Things that we do well. If we run from a gift, than we aren’t being true to ourselves and in some way are actually doing a disservice to those we love and the world around us. I’ve been wondering about my gifts and if I really know what they are. Maybe what I have thought were my gifts, really were vanities and distractions. In times like these, I seek the wisdom of the sages. Or at least the wise people that I know and that know me. I’m trying to clarify gifts and be sure that I don’t run from them. I want to embrace my burden and make it mine.
I’m a believer that in life, we go through seasons. Lately, I’ve been in a season of silence, perhaps a dark night of the soul. Trying to see what’s next. I feel like i’ve accomplished a lot in 40 years of life, but I know I have not reached the end of the potential that life has to offer. I guess I’ve been looking for a vision of what goals to set, for myself and for my family.
I know that being a good father and husband is the most important thing I can do, so I’ve started there. Trying to be sure my family is able to share my journey in faith. Sharing sacred time with them on a weekly basis and being intentional to spend quality time with each of them regularly. From here, I’m now looking to see what other pieces can be added that will make a meaningful life.
“We’re looking far away, what we really need is here.” – Night is Electric
Reading: the Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron
Listening to: Gary Clark Jr. / Blak and Blu